Thursday, June 16, 2011
39 weeks-Didn't think I'd see this day
Last night was a full moon and I hoped that might trigger labor. Nope. Tomorrow I have a midwife appointment where I'll have my membranes stripped, a procedure I had done to try and entice Peyton out, but didn't work for him. I'm hoping that sometime today contractions will start and I won't have to go to the appointment tomorrow. It is so hard to be patient at this point when everything my body is doing is indicating she's ready except for actually having active contractions and having labor begin. She's enormously active, stretching around in her cramped home, my GI system is a wreck, I am having lots of nights like last night where I just can't sleep for no apparent reason, I'm crampy, my low back is achy on and off, and I get nauseated and lightheaded on and off. I'm so ready to just be sleep deprived.
So I'll continue to be fixated on every little cramp, every Braxton Hicks contraction. I will continue to do my visual imagery of a smooth, beautiful delivery and the first time I will get to hold her in my arms and nurse our new little life. I will continue to use some of the natural labor inducing techniques and walk, walk, walk because it makes me feel like I'm doing something. And mostly, I will continue to let my love grow for our new little one and my family and try to not let frustration get the best of me.